Thursday, July 30, 2009

New Challenges

Few days back was 27th of July which was also my beloved cousin, Claire's 21st birthday. It was kinda sad as I wasn't there to celebrate that memorable day with her. So practically, we chatted on facebook and Msn the whole night. As a way to accompany her so that she doesn't really feel like I was missing. Although she still don't want to admit that she misses me. 24 hours later, on the 28th, it was another cousin, Leanne's 21st. Unfortunately, I wasn't there too. Hope they will both have a great year ahead.

Semester started on the same day as Claire's birthday which was on the 27th. After a 3 weeks break, uni will surely give me a little bit of life as I had been rotting throughout the holidays. I dont know what I did but I am sure to tell that I was busy. LOL.. First lecture itself was a massive influx of informations. Sheridan lectured like a bullet train and I was just trying to catch all that she had said and try to keep them inside my brain. However, only 50% was absorbed. Poor thing. Since holiday, my brain lost it's maximum function speed. Might need a few days to recover. But for sure it won't take long.

Pharmacy Practice lecture was second. It was really nice as we had it in PM-06. After the renovations, it looked so good. It felt so much more comfortable and really gives me the mood to study as everything was just right. From the lighting, to the tables (which wont fall off as you dosed off) and also those seats (which gives me the feeling of chinese new year as it were all red). So yea..Definitely going to enjoy all the lectures in that lecture hall throughout this semester. This subject will be much more challenging this time as I just have a feeling I am going to enjoy it. Hopefully I will. With all those recordings and feedbacks, it actually really makes us improve more rather than like what we did last semester.

So I shall work hard for this semester to achieve what I did not achieve last sem.
I CAN DO IT!

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Who Am I

Have you ever wonder who are you and the purpose of you coming to this world? Frankly, I have never given much thought on this until today. The Girl's Ministry of OCF UniSA had a talk on this topic, Who Am I? Before this, I only have a few points on my characteristics in my mind. Not more nor deeper than that. But after today, 23th July 2009, I finally get a clearer point of who am I now. As Amanda shared, I started to reflect and realized how much I have changed. In the handouts given out, there were also columns to write down the positives and negatives experiences that have shaped who you are.

There were many thoughts on the positives but only one negative experience. That experience changed me so much that it is impossible to not realise it. As how the chinese put it, "Each family has it's own problem". At that point when it happened, I started to think, why must it happen to me? How could that? Everything was so normal and fine before this and I really cant accept the change. There are things that I did not imagine will happen or even ever thought it will happen. However, as time goes by, I started to slowly adapt to the situation. I know I have to learn because everything has changed and nothing can be done to reverse that situation. Unfortunately, as time goes by, things did not get better but became worse. I remembered I just hate those situations and everything at home became very stressful for me. For the first time I felt things were so out of control and I just hate it because whatever that is happening is not within my expectations. It was far beyond that. At a level where I have no control at all. There is nothing I can do. I am just a helpless girl in that house. In a house where it contains my once perfect family. Nevertheless, that incident had helped me to be a tougher person. I remembered I was crying like a baby when both my mum and maid came to give me support and courage to just continue the journey believing that things are going to be alright. Furthermore, as the eldest, I must take care of my sisters. I have the responsibility. Now, as years go by, that courage only grew stronger. Nothing can shake it. Once my friend asked me, why am I so realistic at times. How can I not be? Sometimes, people only see from the surface. Who would have ever thought that inside that beautiful house lives a family who once struggled to go on?

Only we ourselves know what exactly is happening. No one can understand us better than ourselves. Do not struggle to be accepted by the crowd as that is only temporal. Besides, you're already accepted as His child. Discovering is a long and exciting journey. It is never ending.

Friday, July 17, 2009

Holiday life

3weeks of holiday and now 1 week left..Time flies. 1st week was merely rotting for me. Sleeping time :am, Waking up time:pm. So pathetic. Negative: No life! But they always say. "Think positively". So the positive thing about living that life is saving money on breakfast and lunch. Especially when I am now spending in dollar and not RM.

Second week was so much better. At least I am doing some stuff. Finally I went for a jog. I was planning since I finished my last paper but I just can't seem to wake up to do that. But on Wednesday, I managed to move my butt out of the bed and get out of the apartment at 7am. Gosh, temperature was around like 6 degrees. So nice. Chilling. The weather was so good. The street was full of white collar workers heading for a coffee before getting into their offices. "I am breathing the fresh morning air", that was what I thought. Few kilometers down the track, I saw a rainbow. As what I will usually do, take out the phone from the pocket and snapped a photo of it. As I continued for another few meters, I felt a drop of water on my head. My heart was pounding as I really don't want it to rain. Seconds later, it drizzled. Before I can even decide whether to continue or to U-turn, it rained heavily. I had no choice but to run back. Hood up but no use as it kept falling off as I ran. Did not really bother but was just running as fast as I could so I can reach home in the shortest time. One thing for sure, I don't want to catch a cold just because I went for a jog. No way. As I reached the main street again, the rain stopped. Took a look at the time, 7.45am. I only jogged for around 30 minutes. That's not my plan. But it doesn't matter. Went home, took a hotbath, ate breakfast and off to Uni. For no reason but I just don't want to stay at home cause I know I will surely do some nonsense stuff. Then sushi for lunch. So delicious.

Besides, as I am a girl, and I can tell you that girls like sleepovers. Went to Lear's house on Thursday. Amazing plan. Nicole and I looked through the thick, few hundred pages baking book and finally decided on chocolate chips cookies and apple tarte tatin( One of the pressure test in MasterChefs). That's for our dessert. For main course, we had glutinous rice and salmon,lemon and spinach pasta. I have to say everything tasted really good except for the apple tarte tatin where I felt the apples were too sour and I am not a big fan of sour fruits. But overall, delicious. The cooking and baking part were fun but sadly, the temperature in the house was not so fun. The house felt like a freezer. It was so cold that we were all shivering except for the host. Lear: Cold? really? no what? I think it's very warm. So we stared at her thinking what was wrong and just ignored her. Her room was also very cold. I don't know how she managed to survive. We were awake turning around the whole night except for Lear. What a successful sleepover!

Results out. Some were more than what I expected but one was lower than what I was expecting. However, I am happy for it. Half a year to go!!!! I shall enjoy this coming week to the fullest before returning to the Uni-life routine..

Till then.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

Sit back and relax!

Yes! Here I am.. Back again to just write something so at least people know I am alright and not infected by swine flu or something like that, because the last post was like a month ago.oops..It was actually 2 months ago.That was long..But not too long. Friends, don't worry about me. I am all fine, healthy and jumping around in Adelaide.

Exam is finally over and so, it's the kickstart for the 3 weeks holiday. Its time to play, watch movies and most importantly rest before the next semester starts. For the last couple of weeks, it had been just studying, studying and studying. Abandoning my social life. So, now it's the time to claim it back.

It is almost 4 days since my last paper and so far, everything was great. Hanging out with friends, 4plates of pasta in Ikea, cards till 2am, video shooting, fish n chips, beach side walk, ice-creams, reading and watching movies. So much fun.

But the best thing is, I finally found a place where I really belong. My room. Since I came, I have not really found a place where I can really feel comfortable. Everything is so different from at home. I miss my room, my table and just everything. But since holiday, I spend more time in my room doing my stuff. Out from the hectic world. Quarantine myself. Reading and just relaxing. So, it is now declared to be my private area. Yeah! I am back living in my cocoon. Thats what I like doing. Being more anti-social. Do things myself. I don't mean doing all things by myself, but I mean there are some things that I prefer to do it alone. I think it is because it allows me to think about myself rather than thinking about what people think of me. We have to first understand ourselves and I would say, I have not really understand myself yet.

Whatsoever it is, I am so blessed to be surrounded by people who care for me and people who lighten up my life. Love you guys!!

Back to movies although it is sleeping time.

Till then. XOXO!