Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Upside Down

The air is filled with laughter yet you feel so lonely.

Your world might be filled with people, yet you feel so lonely.

Have you ever felt that way? We are always afraid of being alone. But sometimes you just feel like whatever that is going around you is just like a story. Somehow somewhat the story ends and there is no fairy tale. So we still need to go on. People only see the external side which includes what you say and do. Deep down inside, there will always be a secret door where only you yourself have the key to unlock the door. Only you but no one else.

Sometimes, the world is spinning so fast that you just cant catch the pace. So in the end, you were left behind. How you wished or felt pressured to run faster so you can be among them. However, you know that no matter what, you just can’t. As you look around, there will surely be people whom were also left behind. Perhaps, it feels better to be among them than those who are of different speed. Just think, if you were to force yourself to run with those in front, can you bear the pressure? Can you really do it? Living a life of your own is more important than living a life where you think people want you to live.

Nowadays, I had been feeling really out of place. There are a lot of things that is going around not the way I thought it would be. But, I chose to shut up and just live with it. I felt like screaming my lungs out but silently. I prefer to keep it to myself. Perhaps, I am not used to telling people. I am not that type who really share. So just go on like nothing is happening. As time will pass and tomorrow will be a better day.